A strange dream

I dreamt of being transferred to another school around Ueda. In a very big room, I was in a teachers’ meeting. Everybody there was new to me, and I really felt uncomfortable. I was angy why I had to leave my new school after only 1 month. To my surprise, the person I really missed in my dream was the colleague at my new school, who sits next to me in the office. I was thinking “I should be having some tea with her around this time! Let me go back to my office! I want to see her. ”
　Strange that I missed her so much though we are not so close to each other. I have been thinking that I don’t like my new school very much. I don’t hate my colleagues but they are too busy to get friends with. That makes me bored and I’m complaining about their unconcern, not having parties or not hanging out together.
In Fujimi, we had a good relationship and never got bored. Enjoyed chatting every day at school or after work, always hanging out together for dinner, drinking, or onsens. These were possibly because many of us lived in the same town or our school was small and each of us felt like we were like a family―? I don’t know why － but there was some kind of special relaxing atmosphere.
After coming to Ina, I couldn’t stop comparing everything here with those in Fujimi. Apparently I had more fun there. Always missing everybody in Fujimi very much.
However, my dream told me I have already come to like my new school unconsciously. Even if I have nobody to hang out with, I may have found something good, which I don’t realize now. Today I came to school and found myself relieved. Things would turn better if I think different.
昨夜見た夢で、私はまた転勤させられて、見たこともない人達と職員会に出ていました。夢の中で私は、今の職場に帰りたくてたまらない自分にびっくり。新しい職場はとても人間関係が希薄で毎日退屈しています。さして嫌なことがあるわけじゃないけど、かといって愛着ももてずに、なんでこんなに皆が他人なの？と不満がいっぱい。同僚が皆仲良しで、毎日がとても楽しかった居心地の良い富士見と比べて、ここはなーんてつまらないんだろう、と文句ばかり言っていたけど・・・夢の中で私が一番会いたかったのは今隣の席で働いている同い年の女性。知らず知らずのうちに、ここがだんだん好きになっているのかもしれません。今日はここに出勤してきたことに妙な安心感があったりして、つまりは心がけ次第なのかもなあ。ないものねだりは、やめないといけません。